Small Town Folk
donderdag, januari 14th, 2010|
IMDB rating: 3.90 Plot: There is a place… a place called Grockleton, wherein, high on a hill-top stands the lonely Beesley’s Manor, governed by the villainous ‘Landlord’ and his lowly male counterparts (Pooch, Pike and the diesel-swilling Dobbin). Always on the look-out for new female company to help carry on the Beesley name, the Landlord keeps a watchful eye over Grockleton and anyone who dares to enter his land. When three improbable heroes stumble unsuspectingly into the Beesley’s realm they are cruelly snared into a menacing hunt and an unstoppable frenzy of heart racing mayhem! Will the Landlord triumph and collect his ‘trophies’ (and maybe even a future bride?), or can the unlikely trio be victorious against him in his own game?… |
Actors: Wright Chris R.,Davis Warwick,Palmer Dan,Stanley-Ward Simon,Martin Greg,Lewis Howard Lew,Nicholas Jon,Richards Ben,Ford James,Musselwhite Chris,Stanley-Ward Peter,Stanley-Ward Peter,Fantasy,Horror,
How do I get out of this rut?
I can’t figure out how to get out of my depression, severe anxiety, headaches, etc. I’ve been suicidal again lately wanting to give up, because I have no one to talk to.
I had a messed up family life with a brother who died of cancer when I was really little, I lived with conservative Christian parents in a small town, my father was trying to keep the family a float and i was just alone with my mom and suicidal. I don’t remember anything about my bro even though I was close to him.
Anyway, I was doing okay in elementary school, but in middle school I got bullied, mugged, and harassed for no reason other than being a quiet nice kid in a school full of thugs. Then I transferred to a better high school that I had to bus or get rides across town for with a better education, but it was full of rich snobs who also harassed me until I had a major growth spurt near the end and started working out regularly.
I also had several major health issues throughout my life that often compromised me, and I was often made fun of for being quiet and for not having much.
So after high school, I went to college and worked extremely hard in school and worked on the side to prove to the haters that I could be somebody. I was also someone who’d help homeless people and other people who I saw that were in trouble that other folks neglected. But most of the time in college, I was isolated, all by myself. I didn’t have true friends, I only had a couple friends as a kid (both at risk youth) and they stabbed me in the back and left me when they didn’t need what I had no more.
My family took care of my basic finanical needs even when they were poor, but they didn’t allow me to have many friends (especially those who weren’t Christian, didn’t allow me to listen to most music, watch TV, or whatever. My dad was also abusive and often intimidated me and never let me speak my mind. I pretty mcuh had to listen, because he did bodybuilding.
Anyway, this all didn’t affect me all that much until the past few years. My parents have quite a bit of money now (they bought a nice house), but they could care less about my problems and I don’t have friends. I’m back there right now, because I’m trying to get these health issues solved and am working towards getting my dream job, but other than giving me food, they aren’t concerned. They actually didn’t even believe depression was real until one of my dad’s friends committed suicide. They know that I’m always alone but never talk to me unless they need me to do something for them.
I hate not being able to breath and I hate never being able to sleep or feel at peace. I’ve been to a psychologist, and he did nothing. I’m also often told that this happened because I stopped going to church, but that isn’t true, and I want nothing to do with that hypocritical institution. I feel like all hte people I’ve known in my life turned their back on me even though I helped them during tough times.
I’m trying, but it takes time and getting a job where I live is impossible with 20% unemployment. College grads have a hard time finding min wage jobs ’round here.
Hurry up and get the job and move out.
Rachael Yay!!! | Oct 25, 2009
first let go of those we have lost.it is easier to remember them .
you must have put a lot of church learning out cause there are other than hypocrites but the important thing is the word.it don’t matter where it comes from as long as it is true.did i loose you yet?
hey its your question.i just been through a lot of what your saying.
be glad for those … you help and satisfied… that you could.
you are not in a rut.the path is narrow where you are keep your balance and it will open up.
martinmm | Oct 25, 2009
I have been through alot of what you are experiencing at the moment. I was badly bullied at school and controlled by my family for years. I am getting treatment from my doctor just now because i kept these things locked up for years thinking they’d dis-appear but they don’t..
Yeah i hope the job happens for you and you manage to get away from it. Seek all the help you can get aswel.
Good luck.
Doves.
xdovesx | Oct 25, 2009
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